Since I was a wee lad, playing poker in smokey basements, with my uncles & grandfather, I have loved this game.For an easy 20 yrs now, I have enjoyed every aspect of playing poker. Nothing quite like sitting in a room full of srangers...chips in one hand, cards in the other. The sound of chips being played with, and the mudderings of hand won and lost. Nothing like it in the world my friends.....proud to be a poker player!!
And then in the last yr I was introduced to online "poker". And never in my life have I seen such sickining things.I will not go off about donkey calls, or fighting the "program"..fight the system more than the payers. we all have see and fought with this over & over again. so I will not go off about it. I will say however, that I have never been so frustrated by anything in my life!!! Hell, being broke and damn near homeless was less stressful, then some of the games I have played here online.
I will not allow my family and/or friends see me like this anymore. I have holes in my wall right behind where my comp. screen sits....from it being punched off the desk. There are holes in the wall leading up the stairs.I feel powerless here. Powerless againts the cards I play & powerless against my own frustration. Niether my family or friends need to see me in this state of mind. I have spent hours in front of this screen, and have not pulled out anything even close to the amount of wasted time spent here. The loss of time spent away from & not with my kids & wife.
I never thought that I would say, "I never want to play poker again". but I have wispered & screamed this statement seveal times over the last few months. I have watched my br go up to a very stable lvl..back down to nothing...backup & down in 2 days span...like rinse & repeat!!!!!!!!!! I feel as tho there is a cap to where I am allowed to build up too, once I reach that lvl, I am pushed to the bottom again and have to start over.......
And yes I know..you all go through the same thing. I feel for all online "poker" players...... both good & bad.but I, myself, can no longer handel this BS. This isnt real poker anyways.haha and if anyone disagrees with this..go read the blog.... right in FTP forum, that states the cards change depending on what ppl at the table do......??Ok well,I can promise you right now folks, that in a live game, the deck doesnt re-shuffel itself if someone folds or bets big. The cards stay the same no matter what a player does. but FTP in there own forum state that, depending on what certain players do, has an effect on the out come of the cards.....???????.......right in thier own words,says it has nothing to do with skill, but more on moves made. plz dont get me wrong there is some very excellent online "poker" players, and they do have great skill, but in the end its all bingo...(FTP's own words)
and so I will stick to the live games.....I will not end my love for poker..but I will leave before online "poker"destroys my love for the actual game. I am removing myself from all "mod" jobs that I may hold. I am hereby saying good bye to all the great ppl I have met, both on the tables & in forums.I have gotten to know some very,very cool people. I am sorry, my friends, that I didnt take the time to come and say good bye to you all in person,but I dont want or need the "pep-talks" about how a break is good...and "you'll be ok again"...plz realize that I am truely sick of this and this will be the last time you all hear from me.
Take care my friends...good luck at the tables, and rape FTP everyfucking chance you get
forever & never,
WINNINGHAND79